So What Now?

Checkmate

2007-04-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

" Some men are born soldiers, many many others are not."

like most misguided youths, its a fate all 18 year olds cannot escape. NS also known as National Service is a whereby boys become men, or so they say. sigh. like a bolt from the blue beyond, it shot into the home of everyboy, and forever changed the quiet, mundane lives of us. Enlistment day has indeed come faster than expected. Tmr i embark on a life changing journey, no more tv, msn, surfing the web, xbox?, nice livingroom or bedroom and the most important. No more hair. gosh. sigh. mixed emotions and a whole lot of confusion. I'm lost. it seemed so far away and now i have to go. i've really got to go. yup. time to serve the nation. two years of anti malaria pills. here i come. ready or not i have to go.

"we had joy we had fun we had
seasons in the sun
but the wine and the song like the
seasons have all gone"

cya! wish me luck!

Take that!

2007-04-01T13:06:00.000+08:00

haha, take that arsenal!! 4-1 trashing woohoo! haha. no offence to those arsenal fans aye. 12 more days to be a patriotic hero. tekong beckons. what to do. when ur 18 in singapore u just cant run away. sigh! hahaha. hope it will be a painless experience aye. anyway, cheerios to crouch and liverpool. brilliant.simply brilliant. HA.

pop, goes my heart

2007-03-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

WAY BACK INTO LOVE

I've been living with a shadow over head
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it true without a way back into love
Oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration not just another negotiation
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me decide again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Oh oh

NICE SONG AYE, HAHA AND WHO SAYS BLOGS DIE AFTER THE RELEASE OF A's. THATS WHAT SOME PPL THINK AYE. 2 MORE WEEKS TO ARMY OR SHLD I SAY 16 MORE DAYS. ARGH. EXCITED YET WORRIED. CHEERIOS TO SAF MATE. DAMN

Answers and Questions

2007-02-19T18:15:00.000+08:00

sell too much chocs and u'll look like willy wonka!

I'm a man of means by no means, king of the road

I know every engineer on every train

All the children and all of their names

And every handout in every town

And every lock that ain't locked

when no-one's around I sing...

Happy Happy Cny ppl!!! guess its time for questions and answers with relatives and yea guess wad! the hot favourite question this year is "so when are u gonna go into army??" haha. at least someone cares aye. haha. anyway yea..see see no emo and sad entries aye. sooooooo.... enjoy the hols ppl. and yea. good luck!

stars in the waters

2007-02-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

Anyway, thanks for having the courage to tell me about how u felt. thanks.

its been great working with you for this whole week. really!! u made the job soo much easier.

somehow its really confusing. really who are you??

sorry that i cant really remember anything abt what happened between us. i chose to forget.

That was directed to 4 different ppl. ok. not just one. anyway, cheerios to valentines. i spent it working. and do u noe u get to see stars in the waters and sky and feel the wind in ur hands and hair and just really feeel soo wonderful on a late night 30 mins bus trip home?? its sooo therapeutic i'm addicted to it. hmmm. nough of the bullshit. gtg slp now after 4 days of non stop work. gosh. nitex.

I'm just a lonely boy, lonely and blue

I'm all alone with nothin' to do

I've got everything you could think of

But all I want is someone to love

Someone, yes, someone to love, someone to kiss

Someone to hold at a moment like this

I'd like to hear somebody say

"I'll give you my love each night and day"

Somebody, somebody, somebody, please send her to me

I'll make her happy, just wait and see

I prayed so hard to the heavens above

That I might find someone to love

walk right back

2007-01-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt.
And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting.
Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt.
And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

LIKE WTH! BULLSHIT LA... really really.. things u do online when ur freaking bored la! go do stupid survey ppl send u. haha. nitex ppl

you're just a clown

2007-01-06T19:45:00.000+08:00

theres another pic from pulau segaya. edwin does emo scenary pics. sorry? cant help it. and its amazing how some people can treat me the way they do when they have a secret hidden in them... how do u do it? teach me.
enjoy

Forever Young

let's dance in style
let's dance for a while
heaven can wait we're only watching the sky
hoping for the best but expecting the worst
are you gonna drop the bomb or not
let us die young or let us live forever
dont have the power but we never say never
sitting in the sandpit
life is a short tripmusic's for the sad man
can you imagine when this race is run
turn our golden faces into the sun
praisin our leaders, getting in tune
the music's played by the mad men
forever young, i want to be forever young
do you really want to live forever,forever, forever
forever young, i want to be forever young
do you really want to live forever,forever, forever
some like water and some are like the heat,some are melodies, some are the beat,

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!

2007-01-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

a brand new road to travel on. heres the start of the new year. walk right thru aye.

Anyway, its time to update and everything. hi hi 2007 and bye bye 2006.. it really been a year and ya cheers to loads of stuff and shit. gosh am i really oblivious to many many things.. been a fool and doubt that will change soon... okok, lets not start the new year with another EMO entry aye! its making me bored.. heres to everyone, happy new year! and yea one thing.. cheers to lonely hearts aye! to the slpy idiot whos reading this. hahahahaha. BET U PPL LOVE THE PIC ABOVE!!! taken by yours truely:)

Should old acquaintance be forgot
And never brought to mind
Should old acquaintance be forgot
And days of auld lang syne
For auld lang syne, my dear...........

we spoke stars that day

2006-12-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

YOU DONT HAVE TO SAY YOU LOVE ME

When i said i needed you
You said you would always stay
It wasn't me who changed but you
And now you've gone away

Don't you see
That now you've gone
And i'm left here on my own
That i have to follow you
And beg you to come home?

You don't have to say you love me
Just be close at hand
You don't have to stay forever
I will understand
Believe me, believe me
I can't help but love you

But believe me
I'll never tie you down

Left alone with just a memory
Life seems dead and so unreal
All that's left is loneliness
There's nothing left to feel

You don't have to say you love me
Just be close at hand
You don't have to stay forever
I will understand
Believe me, believe me

Dusty Springfield

okok.. trip to indon.. basked in the sun, braved nonsense, swam great lengths, spoke stars everynight, followed our compasses, walk the wood, hear the echos, saw emo nemos.. and i just cant get enough of it..gosh.. sunrise, sunset. how i wish i was back there again.

TOO FAST

2006-12-07T00:51:00.000+08:00

SORRY!!!!!!!
to: the guy i shouted at in soccer
dawn and ele for disturbing them and being boring!
santos, iggy, thadd, hafiz, darcy for being extremely late..
i think thats all for today..

to all these ppl SORRY!!!!!

hmmmm.....too fast man, just too fast.it was a good match and a fairly good whipping session. SIGH! for the beautiful game anything goes...abrasion, bruised feet, loads of blisters, one dizzy head and i'm walking ard like an old man. someone get me a walking stick. i think i'll need one of those. yikes
so yea..6 days out of homey singapore to some off shore island in indon doing OCIP.. brilliant. home miss home. die. leaving friday and yea. gotta pack soon.
p;s/ its amazing how girls are walk ard the whole town area and just walk! and talk! AMAZING!!!! eddie fascinated. very fascinated...haha.. alrite wholeload of crap. haha.

MASQUERADE!!

2006-12-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

XBOX 360 MATE?!!? hahahaha. i'm one lucky ass to win that.. gosh. amazing.. anyway, prom was fun and just a typical prom la..nice. so yea... practically thats the last time u're so gonna see it each other and hmmm..will miss some of u guys.. IN DIRE need of slp and rest now.. will prolly blog more later..
XBOX 360!!!! sorry, i just needed to sat that one more time:P

DONT EXPECT ME TO BE YOUR FRIEND

2006-11-28T13:54:00.000+08:00

you think ur the only person on this planet? think again..
its amazing how ppl can get so involved with themselves, i'm not angry, just fascinated.. like woah! its a bloody talent! so when was the last time u actually stopped to look ard.. look at time, people, or anything.. and suddenly, ur so small and u dont really matter at all? who cares if u graduated...or ur prom is coming up. I used to wake up worrying 'Bout what I had done before instead of being happy with what I had I was always looking for more i had to get ahead of the people living next to me But like a big Dumb Dumb I was the one...I was sticking it right to me, something is missing.. something is seriously missing.. i've lost a part of me and i noe it. theres an empty gap somewhere that i so wanna fill. but who cares aye.. i'll just keep searching ,but at least now I can't wait to wake up mornings and look myself in the face I like being right where I am not looking for some other place I am what I am and I like what I am and now my life feels right I'm happy to say I found my way

Everyday is my way of life.period

Don't Expect Me To Be Your Friend

I stopped sending flowers to your apartment
You said you aren't home much anymore
I stopped dropping by without an appointment
Cause I'd hear laughter coming through your door.

Sometimes late at night you'll still call me
Just before you close your eyes to sleep
You make me vow to try and stop by sometime
Baby that's a promise I can't keep.

I love you too much to ever start liking you
So lets just let the story kinda end
I love you too much to ever start liking you
So don't expect me to be your friend.

I don't walk down through the village or other places
That we used to go to all the time
I'm trying to erase you from my memory
Cause thinking of you jumbles up my mind.

You always act so happy when I see you
You smile that way you take my hand and then
Introduce me to your latest lover
That's when I feel the walls start crashing in.

lobo.

MASQUERADE

2006-11-27T03:17:00.000+08:00

how did i not noe the theme is masquerade... hahahhaa. u mean its masquerade?!
thanks nette for reminding me.. so wad now??
time to get masks? or something related to that aye?
we'll see
.still cant believe its masquerade.weird.

This Never Happened Before

2006-11-25T14:12:00.000+08:00

As are OVER!!!!

yea.. that was prolly a week ago..haha.gosh am i bored and tired from playing..yawn. and will people stop asking wad am i wearing for prom!! its getting on my nerves aye.alritey then, will update soon, i hope and yea. this never happened before aye.

whimsical

2006-09-23T00:09:00.001+08:00

Greatness to me is to fail big and stick around.... make people wonder why the hell are u still smiling..and at the end of the day succeed in wadever ways possible..sadness is only surrender.

and its been a while since i've written in this blog. cobwebs everywhere .. argh! haha.. anyway, its only a matter of time freedom arrives.. so yea. just stick around and hopefully succeed:)
how do u take a break from life?? halftime anyone?? haha..

hmmhmm...honesty, sonnerby, hypocrisy,love and loss... seen all these many times over and over again.. but in the end its all with a refreshing lightness. joy joy..
haha. and to all those harassing me to update.. this one is hard to come by. coz the next one will be like *u noe:).

so ya... enjoy the ride.

for all those whom i haven really been a fren too. sorry.. i just cant help helping:)
I'll Be There
Jackson 5

You and i must make a pact,
we must bring salvation back
Where there is love,
i'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you, i'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and i'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you, i'm so glad that i found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength, i'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all i'm after
Whenever you need me, i'll be there
I'll be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you

Just call my name and i'll be there

If you should ever find someone new,
i know he'd better be good to you'cause if he doesn't, i'll be there

Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, i'll be there, just call my name, i'll be there
I'll be there, i'll be there, whenever you need me, i'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeahI'll be there, i'll be there, just call my name, i'll be there...

eternal storm

2006-07-05T01:12:00.000+08:00

Doors after Doors. When will it stop?

this blog will be dead for a few months. Yes it will. so dun bother dropping by to read anything or expect anything. Coz theres nothing left. It will soon fade away, i will soon fade away and be in a world of my own. Tend to do that when i start mugging real hard. So forgive me if i kinda "disappear". Bet nobody will noe. doesnt matter. i'm lost in time. i am.nvm. hi loner,goodbye ed.
maybe Happiness is really being distant from everything. the world stops while u catch ur breath. the world doesnt stop. stop lying to urself. So ya, cya ppl in a few months time.enjoy.

eternal sunshine of a spotless mind. brilliant but weird.

ITS OVER!!!!

2006-06-30T19:32:00.000+08:00

the mids are over... finally..........

haha, mids sucks
time for me to update.
ya.

its been a long time i had a good slp. after all the mugging and everything. many many many many things happened. just din wanna blog. anyway, looking forward to the match on monday and yes we're so gonna win.

the luckiest.

The bitter struggle

2006-05-31T12:45:00.000+08:00

alrite... here comes the hols...

and all the studying... its called a freaking holiday! argh.

anyway, CI wing stayover was fun and just plain nice..

and now for reality,

a comedy, mystery, irony, tragedy? So I scream "let the show begin"!

So cut below the surface and try hard not to notice that I could be so foolish thinkin' I'm alright. I've got no one to hold me, I've got no one to carry. Everything inside of me that I won't let you see.

Happy Hols.

haha!

2006-05-22T21:39:00.000+08:00

WTF?? haha..argh!

this is wad ppl do to shut u up and at the same time make them happy.

haha!

Crazy :)

life goes on

2006-05-21T16:29:00.000+08:00

You are amazing dude.

sundays are sooooo nice..... relaxed, laid back and everything nice. haha

Narrow is the road and too high a price to pay. When loneliness is such a sanctuary

Empty are the musings and wasted are the days...

Famous last words. If tomorrow never comes, will I ever know that I was in love?

I was in love

In love .

Have a Good week everyone :)

If tomorrow never comes.

2006-05-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

So tell that someone That you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

Seriously, never live a life of regrets. it sucks. totally. how u wish you could do anything all over again... how i wish.. nvm. its beyond my control.

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

So to those reading this post. cherish and treasure ur loved ones aye? friends and family....you dun wanna lose them. what if tomorrow never comes?
anyway, this is becoming argh.

$7 to charity and some entertainment. some. minus away irritating and rude ppl who cant shut up during a concert.
its for charity anyway.

enjoy the weekend. hopefully.

Don't Cry?

2006-05-17T20:58:00.000+08:00

To U:

i'm at loss really.. it kinda came too sudden. and this is for u if ur reading it.. that i'll miss you when ur gone really.. really really really. hope i've been a fren to ya and i seriously regret the times when i'm an idiot or retard. life is gonna be boring. it will be. anyway, all the best aye? and i'll always remember the memories and everything. take care Friend : )

Stand By Me
Made a meal and threw it up on Sunday I've-Gotta lot of things to learn
Said I would and I'll be leaving one day
Before my heart starts to burn

So what's the matter with you?Sing me something new...
don't you know the cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away

Times are hard when things have got no meaning,
I've found a key upon the floor
Maybe you and I will not believe in the things we find
Behind the door

So what's the matter with you?
Sing me something new...
don't you knowThe cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away

Stand by me...nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me...nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me...nobody knows the way it's gonna be

If you're leaving will you take me with you
I'm tired of talking on my phone
There is one thing I can never give you
My heart will never be your home

So what's the matter with you?
Sing me something new...
don't you knowThe cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away

Stand by me...nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me...nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me...nobody knows the way it's gonna be

Oasis

kinda relevant to my life now..

Don't Cry. Don't.

Chasing Rainbows

2006-05-14T20:58:00.000+08:00

alrite..
firstly, sorry to all councillors who are not in that pic below. sorry aye?

wad the heck am i doing?
confusion, and all those messed up feelings or anything like that. life is getting interesting. finally. happy or sad? God noes.
have a nice time sorting out urself, edwin!.

Don't Start.period.

Can't erase it

2006-05-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

fellowship.period.

anyway, this is madness.

3km run. 1 hr of frisbee. 1 hr of soccer. then the whole day of frisbee today.

man. i'm dead tired.. and these are the pics i took so much trouble gathering ppl. argh.

its worth it anyway. yes it is.

here we go again

2006-05-10T22:12:00.000+08:00

here we go again..
i'll be a fool again..
one more time..

its bloody amazing how i always have to say the wrong things to everyone.argh.
guess i'm a fool and an irritant.get rid of me. leave me faraway so that nobody ever sees me.

I Started a Joke

I started a joke, which started the whole world crying,

but I didn't see that the joke was on me, oh no.

I started to cry, which started the whole world laughing,

oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.

I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes,

and I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that I'd said.

Til I finally died, which started the whole world living,

oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.

I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes,

and I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that I'd said.

Til I finally died, which started the whole world living, oh,

if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.

Bee Gees.

call me anything u want, seriously i dun care. really.
SCREWED

No. 1 post

2006-05-07T17:12:00.000+08:00

alrite...
the virgin post. firstly, urs truely aint no blogger.. alrite.. so dun expect any nice or interesting posts.
ok. we'll see.